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The Dirt On Me: Short Version

Preface: If I were to guess, I’d say that this title alone would bring more people to my blog than any other reason. As humans, we love getting the dirt on others. It’s why we gossip. It makes us feel better about ourselves and helps us forget about the sin that’s in our own lives.  (Please don’t misunderstand. I am not pointing fingers at anyone and I’ll be the first to admit that I have failed in this area as well. It’s our human nature. But it doesn’t mean we cannot quit fighting it, with God’s help. I encourage you to join me in this fight!)

During my divorce and after, there were many people who talked about my ex and me throughout our small community. Some of it may have been true but much of it was not. I heard many things that was said about me that was so far from the truth. But there is still accurate “dirt on me”, just as there is dirt on everyone else.

We all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.

And as for me, I’ve fallen way short. I’ve struggled with what to reveal of my past to the public and what to hold tight. There are more things to think about than just myself in the matter. Thankfully, my past is forgiven and the further away I get from it and the closer I draw to Christ, the less I feel the need to share (for my own sake).

So here is the dirt on me (followed by the redemption). I am a sinner, saved by Grace, and have fallen many times in life. I have not made good sound decisions when it comes to following Christ. I have fallen flat on my face and the ugliness in my life has been revealed by my Creator. It took feeling like I was at the bottom with no place to go but up, to start to climb upwards. He reached down and intervened in my life and all the unpleasant things I did and went through were my wake up call to come home to Him.

I look back on the events of my life and I see His hand in all of it. All of the pain I endured, whether my own fault or not, was part of His plan to bring me back to Him. I see the beauty in the brokenness and the healing through the tears. And I can confidently say today… 

Everything I went through, good and bad, has brought me to the place I need to be. 

So though there is dirt on me, the good news is that I’m forgiven and redeemed, broken but beautifully reclaimed by Jesus Himself. And THAT is what is important. 

Do you need to come home to Him? To be forgiven of your past? I’d be happy to pray for you (no details needed). Leave a comment below or email me at livingtransparently@yahoo.com.

Let’s lift each other up and encourage transformation and stop listening to the dirt we hear about each other. Most of it usually isn’t true anyway.

I  fail at this sometimes but I’m working on it. If I’m ever around you and am entertaining gossip or sharing it myself, call me out on it (in love of course 🙂 )! Hold me accountable.  Are you with me?

And remember,  “dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.” Phillipians 4:8

~Keeping it Real,



4 thoughts on “The Dirt On Me: Short Version

  1. I’m glad you’ve found forgiveness and I hope peace is coming with it. We can only control how we react to what is said. I have baggage in my life as well but God has forgiven me and sometimes he places people on my heart to share my testimony with. I wish you the best my sister.

  2. I say now that God has taken my stony stubborn heart, broken it, and replaced it with a tender responsive heart. My new heart has had (and is having) a very high price paid for it and I don’t ever want my old heart back.

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